Unfinished

It hurts me to see that I’m hurting you,
I’m weak, pretending there’s nothing I can do,
It’s unfortunate, because that’s how I was raised,
I’m selfish, because nothing’s changed,
It’s not fair, you suffer under my hand,
I can’t apologize, because I’d do it again,
If I can’t see it, it’s not one of my problems,
So I close my eyes, and I ignore them,
But you haven’t moved, you’re still there,
You’re still waiting for me to care,
But I’m such a lie, everything about me is fake,
When I’m going to bend I force myself to break,
I want you to give up, but I wish I was worth the fight,
I wish I could bring myself to do something right,
I want your forgiveness, but I’d never ask,
I’d never admit I wasn’t on track,